My life seems to be on overdrive as of late – finalizing my career change ideas, researching masters degree programs, lounging in large pools in Vegas. I mean really, that can just be a bit overwhelming for a girl, you know?
Of course I realize there’s no excuse (except a lame one) for me having left the writing alone for over a week. None. Especially when I fuss at other bloggers and remind them of that handy WordPress mobile application we can always use whenever we’re not near a computer.
So what about my dating life and the hangovers?
I’m glad to say that I am pretty darn happy with Rescue 911, training sessions have been ongoing and right now, I really don’t have much to complain about. He’s currently going through re-training with me and thus far, has been very receptive to my suggestions, gripes and
comments on things that could lead us off the beaten path of happiness together.
Yes, I said re-training.
Since this is the first time I’ve ever gone backwards and became involved with an ex-boyfriend, I have to imagine the only way things can work a second time around is if each person makes sure the other understands what went wrong the first time and what they can do whatever is in their power to make sure they survive any relationship challenges this go round.
I’ve had to re-train Rescue and let him know that if he’s working late and having to pull an all nighter, a simple text like
“I’m working late” is all it takes to keep me from fussing later. Explaining that it isn’t insecurity or me policing his whereabouts but instead, care and concern that he’s okay if he’s not come through that door by 4am.
Rescue has gone through a refresher course on time management so he understands that being involved with a woman, working
a job with crazy hours, being a father, having a side hustle in the recording studio, event planning and of course needing moments to himself, he has quite the juggling act to contend with.
We’re BOTH in sexual sensitivity training. Meaning no matter how tired we are, stressed at the end of a long day or frustrated, no more than three days should pass without a little sexual healing. Just thinking about how my body still gets that tingling feeling all over from his touch, his kisses, how he looks at me like I am a goddess and it all leading up to wonderful love making sessions. Mmm. I digressed.
Although the lack of time and his inability to succeed at the balancing act when we were together some 4 years ago, I’ve got my issues to be worked on as well. Patience. Patience. Patience. I’m pretty quick to the draw and ready to shoot to kill so Rescue has his work cut out
training me to be a little more receptive to certain things, especially to change.
With the exception of that ONE piece of unresolved business he has until December to address, things are progressing in the right direction. Still, I can’t help but have certain thoughts that could possibly sabotage the entire situation.
Good on Paper has recently started calling, more frequently and I’m not sure why. What I SHOULD be doing is saying “stop calling me, you had your change, have a good life”.
So why is it that I have not? Is it out of curiosity, hope, doubt or fear?
I think I’d better figure out the why and really soon.
I promise not to stay away for so long again.